Even when I can afford now, when my children ask me to buy them appropriately, often my first reaction is my heart pounding. My accompanying thought goes…what if they ask in logarithmic proportions at this rate?
Whenever I open up to my sponsor, even if in bits and pieces, she fits the jigsaw of my mind in a jiffy. At other times, I think of her and my whole system is renewed to a baseline. She takes me in within myself in the fastest route and so she is my God of understanding on earth.
It is not as much as learning to trust another as it is with respect to trusting my instinct and decisions with regard to financial matters.
Even though my investments are in place, I worry constantly.
It took me 22 years of my career to understand what is the inner need. I would have never identified my problem if not for my sponsor and I would have been trying to fix all other problems without understanding the main issue which was the cause for most of my other issues.
Two days ago, I was able to realize that I had no job hence all the issues. However, the biggest issue I have been facing all my life is that I don’t have a consistent and growing income.